That Time I Dropped a Barbell On Myself

It’s rare for me to post more than once in a day, but this is one of those posts that I feel loses impact if not posted in a timely fashion.

I dropped a barbell on myself this morning. Before you start freaking out, I’m not hurt. There may be a slight bruise but more than anything, it’s just my ego that’s bruised.

 

Before you start blaming CrossFit or thinking I’m not in good hands or was pushed beyond my means, that’s not what happened.

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We were working on Snatch Balances as our strength movement this morning. It’s a new move to me and a little awkward at first, but I got it and kept the weight light, creeping up slowly. I got to 60# and when I went to push the weight up, I couldn’t lock my arm out, it just gave out. I tried to bail the bar but couldn’t get myself out of the way fast enough and the bar came down on me instead.

 

I couldn’t believe what was happening. My coach came running over, the girls nearby came over to make sure I was okay. I was on the ground scared, confused, frustrated, embarrassed and now also in tears. Not because I was hurt, just because of what happened.

 

I got myself back up, I let myself take a few minutes to let out those emotions, then stripped the weight back down to my last successful weight (55#) and couldn’t get it. I bailed on the bar before it got over head. Everyone around me was watching and knew I was battling myself. One of the guys even yelled from across the gym “get out of your head!” …that was exactly what was happening.

 

I put the bar back on the rack, took a few steps back and a few deep breaths. Everyone knew I had it, we knew I was OK, we just knew I was fighting an inner battle. I stepped back up to the bar, put it on my shoulders, and did the snatch.

 

The real problem is that I’m a crier…once I start I don’t stop. So throughout the rest of class (and the morning that followed), I was wiping tears off my face. My fellow athletes kept coming up, making sure I was okay, reassuring me that I’ve got this.

 

It’s this community of CrossFit that can’t be ignored, can’t be silenced and can’t be stopped.

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If you watched the Games this weekend, you saw it then too.  You saw it when the athletes that finished first were out on the field cheering on the athletes still pushing through. It’s like something I’ve never witnessed except when I’m at the box.

 

So while I dropped a barbell on myself this morning, while my ego is bruised and while my level of embarrassment is high, I’ll be back tomorrow. Because I know when I walk in, I’ll be surrounded by some freaking amazing people ready to pick me back up.

Baby, Games & A Tune

What a marvelous weekend! Seriously, my heart is so full! I wasn’t feeling great Saturday afternoon (not sure what happened) and decided to take an easier short 2 mile run Sunday instead of the planned 14. With the terrible heat and humidity, no complaints on that.

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But the real reason my heart is so full is that I became an aunt Sunday morning. One of my good friend’s Julie had a beautiful baby boy. I was on pins and needles since waking up to the text that she was on her way to the hospital and even more so once my roommate (her sister-in-law) was on her way to the hospital to meet the little guy but where the friends didn’t get the announcement yet. Talk about being crazy anxious.

 

Regardless, I’m so happy for her and her new little family and already love this little peanut!

games-logoDid anyone else spend their entire weekend watching the CrossFit Games? No…just me? Well, I don’t have any regrets! It’s been pretty freaking incredible to watch and I loved every minute! I find those individuals and teams so inspiring – from pulling that giant Bob Sled down the field to all the muscle-ups…I’m seriously impressed, inspired and extremely motivated. I know my body can do incredible things and I’m excited to see how I can continue to grow and improve as an athlete. I may never (probably won’t) make it to the games (and that’s okay), it’s just a reminder to keep pushing myself to become an even better version of ME!

Congrats to ALL of the athletes at the games!

My friend Nicole and I have already decided we want to go watch next year’s games in-person…how fun will that be?!

 

Anyway, since it’s Monday, I need to leave you with a little music so here’s a fun one for your workout or running playlist. “Go Down Smooth” by Lake Street Dive.

 

 

Did you watch the CrossFit Games at all this weekend?

Give me a favorite from your workout playlist right now?

The Gray Area

Sometimes we find ourselves questioning what we want to do with our lives, or maybe it’s what we’re meant to do with our lives. Regardless, we’re often questioning ourselves. I think this is especially true in our 20s as we are still discovering ourselves, who we are, we who want to be and what we want out of this life. My journey has proven that I have often felt that way. And quite honestly, many days I still feel that way.

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When I find myself battling these thoughts, these questions and I feel that inner struggle, it’s often between my love and passion for a career in music and my love and passion for healthy-living and fitness. What I learned after pursuing my CPT two years ago is that it’s not black and white for me. I can’t just work in music and I can’t just work in the fitness field. I have to find that balance, that middle ground, that gray area if you will. Somedays I feel like I have the right shade of gray and other days I find myself trying to lighten or darken the shade, struggling to find the right balance.

 

Despite my unknowns, despite my inconsistencies, despite my questions and concerns, there’s two things I know to be certain….

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1 – I am SO passionate about music that it will ALWAYS have to be a part of my life and my career. I am not ME unless it is. I have a particular soft spot for talented musicians who are doing everything within their power to make it, who need that extra push and guidance to get to the next level of their careers. They’ll piss me off one day and inspire me the next, but I need that in my life.

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2 – I am HERE to inspire people, to help them reach their next level of health and fitness, to help them realize that health is within their reach no matter how far away it may seem, to be that extra bit of motivation to get through that tough workout, that long run or maybe even that FIRST step for their afternoon walk. Whatever it may be, I’m here to help inspire that change as I continue to push MYSELF outside my comfort zone and challenge my body in new ways every single day.

 

My journey is really just beginning and there’s no telling what lies ahead, what shade of gray I’ll step in tomorrow or if it will be a different shade a few months or years down the line. All I can really do is just pick up a brush and start painting.

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That Week I Need Extra Rest

Wednesday night I made my way into the city for a work event, grabbing dinner with a friend and then making our way over to a party for an artist who just finished up their campaign through Pledge. When I met him a few weeks ago, he was so excited to find out there’s a local Chicago rep and asked me to come out, so of course I did!

 

 

It was a fun evening but by the time I got home it was after midnight and since I’d been up since 4am for CrossFit, I was exhausted. I set my alarm for a bit later Thursday morning and let myself get a little extra sleep. I was finally able to pull myself out of bed at 8, threw on some clothes, did my makeup and made my way to the coffee shop for a few hours of work. My body was feeling tired and I knew I needed to at least skip my pre-planned morning run. Part of me was thinking I would do it later so I threw some socks and gym shoes in a bag that I could stash in my car.

 

As the morning progressed, I realized what I really needed was extra rest. My legs were feeling tired but even more so, my mind was exhausted. I had the inner battle of knowing how much a workout can help my mood, but also knew this was just one of those days when I needed to skip it altogether and if anything, go for an afternoon walk in the gorgeous weather.

More photos from the Reindeer Games!

More photos from the Reindeer Games!

Some weeks I’m still finding that balance of marathon training, CrossFit and rest…this is one of those weeks when balance means taking that extra rest day. I’m proud of myself for knowing that I need it, listening and taking it.

Here’s what the rest of the week looked like:

Friday 7/18

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2x800m with 3 mins rest – 9:20 mile

 

Saturday 7/19

Rest

 

Sunday 7/20

9.15 mile run

 

Monday 7/21

Strength – Front squat: 5-3-1+ :  75# (10)

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Tuesday 7/22

Strength – Push press: 3-3-3+ : 70# (3)

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10x200m (w/ 2 mins rest)

25 mins yoga – gentle Hatha 2

 

Wednesday 7/23

Strength:

Every :30 for 4:00

2 Power Cleans – 55#

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Thursday 7/24

Rest

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How are you at taking an extra rest day when you need it?

Learning to Be Flexible

There’s something to be said for flexibility and I don’t mean being physically flexible. Yes, that is a good thing but that’s not what we’re talking about today. I’m talking about being flexible with life, with plans, with the ebb and flow.

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It was a lesson I learned the hard way a few months ago…I was headed into the city for a show, one I had been looking forward to for quite some time actually. It’s Chicago, I knew to expect traffic but what I didn’t expect was the traffic that was waiting for me. They were filling pot holes on a Saturday night on one of the main highways into the city, taking traffic from 4 or 5 lanes down to 1 or 2. We were at a standstill at a point where I wasn’t even able to pull off at an exit and find another way. I sat.

 

I remember reaching out to the manager letting him know I might be late and confirming the time the artist was playing. I called friends to catch up to help the time pass (on bluetooth!). And when I still hadn’t moved and I knew the artist was about to go on, I let the manager know I wouldn’t make it and apologized profusely.

 

I felt awful and at first was extremely hard on myself for not making it in time. But the truth is, sometimes things happen. Sometimes plans need to change. Sometimes we need to just go with the flow and let life play out as it’s going to.

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Would it have been great to make that show? Of course!

Would it have been good to check traffic earlier and see I needed to give myself more time? Well, yeah.

But at the end of the day, was it a good lesson? Yes and probably one I really needed.

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I may be able to touch my toes, but I’m still learning to be flexible with my life. It’s a lesson that may take me a little longer to master but in time, I know I’ll get there too!

 

How are you when it comes to being flexible with life?

Have you had any tough lessons like this?

Joining Amanda for a little Thinking Out Loud today!

Rosemary Almond & Kale Pesto Salmon (with Blue Diamond)

I love salmon but it’s not one of those things I often think of making at home. It’s a treat when I go out to eat but for some reason, I always forget how easy it is to make myself.

 

A few weeks ago I purchased some frozen salmon from Trader Joe’s and it sat in my freezer for weeks until I finally decided what I wanted to do with it. Yes I could have simply baked it in the oven but when Blue Diamond sent me a can of their Rosemary & Black Pepper Almonds, I knew I had to do something fun and a little different with them.

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When I first made salmon for myself a couple months ago, I found a delicious recipe for baked salmon topped with pesto. It was absolutely incredible and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since. Then I started brainstorming and decided I could make a kale pesto with the almonds and was sure it would be incredible…and it was.

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Ingredients:

-1 large handful kale, cleaned and roughly chopped

-1 clove garlic

-(approx) ¼ cup Rosemary & Black Pepper almonds

-Olive Oil

-Salt & Pepper to taste (I didn’t find add any as I didn’t find it necessary)

 

In a food processor, combine all ingredients streaming in olive oil until desired consistency is reached.

 

Top salmon with pesto and bake in a 400* oven for about 10-12 minutes or until salmon is flaky.

 

Freeze leftover pesto for future yummy dishes. ;)

 

I paired my salmon would some zucchini sautéed simply with a little coconut oil and salt and pepper. It was such a delicious meal – perfect for some summer entertaining too! ;)

 

What’s your favorite way to eat salmon?

How would you enjoy Rosemary & Black Pepper almonds?

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*Disclaimer: Blue Diamond sponsored this post by providing me with almonds in exchange for this post but as always, all thoughts and opinions are entirely my own!*

This One’s For the Girls

Do you remember this song? It’s an old one but it’s one that every time I hear it come on the radio, I have to turn it up and sing along. It’s not a Monday, but we’re looping back with more music today because I know that I need it and maybe someone else does too.

 

 

This one’s for all you girls about thirteen

High school can be so rough, can be so mean

Hold onto, on to your innocence

Stand your ground when everyone’s giving in

 

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This one’s for the girls

 

This is for all you girls about twenty-five

In a little apartment, just trying to get by

Living on, on dreams and spaghetti-o’s

Wondering where you life is gonna go

 

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This one’s for the girls

Who’ve ever had a broken heart

Who’ve wished upon a shooting star

You’re beautiful the way you are

This one’s for the girls

Who love without holding back

Who dream with everything they have

All around the world

This one’s for the girls

 

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This is for all you girls about forty-two

Tossing pennies into the Fountain of Youth

Every laugh, laugh line on your face

Made you who you are today

 

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This one’s for the girls

Who’ve ever had a broken heart

Who’ve wished upon a shooting star

You’re beautiful the way you are

This one’s for the girls

Who love without holding back

Who dream with everything they have

All around the world

This one’s for the girls

 

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Yeah, we’re all the same inside (same inside)

 

This one’s for the girls

Who’ve ever had a broken heart

Who’ve wished upon a shooting star

You’re beautiful the way you are

This one’s for the girls

Who love without holding back

Who dream with everything they have

All around the world

This one’s for the girls

Yeah, this one’s for the girls

 

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This one is for ALL of you. Anyone who needs the reminder of how beautiful you are – on the inside AND out. Anyone who needs that extra bit of love and inspiration in her life today, this week, this month, or this year. This is for YOU.

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Dirt

I’m still living in the summer of country music. I switch it up from time to time but some days, I just can’t get enough. I know country is either loved or hated so for some of you, this just won’t be your thing but for others, you may enjoy this…so give it a shot.

 

This week I’ve been loving the new one by Florida Georgia Line called “Dirt”… (careful the video is a bit of a tear jerker)

 

 

My favorite lyric that really just sticks right out and touches me is “You know you came from it, And some day you’ll return to it.”

 

For me, it’s a simple reminder where we come from, that life is precious and simple and that we don’t need to take everything so seriously, just enjoy this life and all of the simple pleasures.

 

And maybe, once and awhile play in the dirt.

Proof from last year's PrettyMuddy run ;)

Proof from last year’s PrettyMuddy run ;)

 

What are you listening to this week?

Christmas in July @ CrossFit AMRAP

This is a CrossFit heavy week for me. My box is having our own in-house competition that’s called the Reindeer Games – Christmas in July. It wasn’t my plan to come everyday but apparently my inner athlete and inner competitor is coming out this week and there’s no backing down.

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To make it better (or worse?) after 3 days of competition, I was sitting tied for second in my age group for the scaled division. My running might be lacking a bit this week, but we’re getting some sprints in during a few of the workouts so I’m not going entirely cold turkey. Besides, every run counts, right? ;)

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So how have I kicked my butt this week? Let’s see….

Friday 7/11

 

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Saturday 7/12

REST

 

Sunday 7/13

11 mile run

 

Monday 7/14

Reindeer Games 1

Tuesday 7/15

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Wednesday 7/16

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Thursday 7/16

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8 x 200m run (w/ 2 mins rest) – 7:49 mile (!!)

 

I’m nervous and excited to see how today’s WOD goes and where I stand when it’s all said and done. Regardless though, I’m SO proud of how I’ve done!

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How were your workouts this week?

*WOD photos were taken by a friend/fellow AMRAP athlete, Nicole! Thanks, girl!*

Creating Healthy Habits

They say it takes 21 days to create a habit. And whether or not that’s true, I’m a believer that it only takes 1 day to break a habit! It’s taken me a long time to get into my healthy routine, to get used to waking up early to get in my workout first thing, to choose healthy foods whether eating out or at the grocery store, etc…you get the gist. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have room to improve, to grow and to better myself…to create more healthy habits, if you will.

 

One of the things I’ve been trying to work on is taking care of my mental health – whether that be through yoga, meditation or writing. I’ve failed greatly at the meditation side of things but I’m working on the meditation and writing…or rather meditation through writing.

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For the last couple months, I have been waking up a few minutes early to get in some morning journaling. Some days time only allows for 5 minutes and other days, I have more time to devote to it and more to write about and get off my chest. It’s a simple thing that I’ve come to really enjoy each morning. Some days I grab my journal and start writing before I even step foot out of bed and some days I get ready for my workout, make the bed, and then start writing. Each day might vary slightly, but the important thing is that each day it’s happening. Each day I’m taking that quiet time for myself, to reflect and to look ahead to my day.

 

Another healthy habit I’ve been working on, is another simple one that only takes a couple minutes. Right before bed I complete 25 sit-ups and one 60 second plank. I’ve always been self-conscious of my middle section and yet I often neglect additional core work. By ending my day with just a couple minutes, I’m making this a habit and giving my mid-section the love that it so desperately deserves. As it feels right, I’ll adjust the number of sit-ups or length of my plank, but right now this has been just the right burn before bed.

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Whether it takes you 21 days, 50 days or 100 days to create a new habit, the important thing is that we are working to better ourselves with these simple healthy routines.

 

What healthy habits are you working on?

Joining up for TOL!