With my old office being in Santa Monica, it’s not uncommon to run into my old bosses or coworkers while I’m at work. They are an Apple office, so it only makes sense they would have to stop by my location to pick up additional equipment, accessories or visit the Genius Bar. We’re cool so I never mind running into them.
But then the other day happened.
I was on my lunch break and stepped outside with Amy for her 15. We were sitting in our usual spot in the sun talking when I noticed one of my old bosses walk by. I haven’t seen him in a while, if at all since the day I left the office for the last time. It took a minute of waving for him to realize that it was me. He gave me a hug and we started talking.
He asked me how I was doing and what’s going on. I filled him in on my role within the store to which he asked where I’m going with it.
That’s a good question.
We talked about how I lost The Lumineers last year. He asked if I was managing anyone else.
He asked if I was looking for anyone else.
I said yeah, kind of, maybe. I don’t know.
And suddenly in that moment, I felt like gum on the bottom of someone’s shoe. In no way do I think this conversation was meant to make me feel like that. In fact, I’m pretty certain he was probably just trying to figure out what I was doing and how I felt about it all.
Well, in that moment I felt like chewed up gum. And in some ways, still do.
I’ve talked to you all about how my goals have turned more to writing. The year of writing this blog has been eye opening to me; allowing me to see a new form of release and passion. There’s something really freeing about this.
But turning it into a career isn’t an easy feat. And I don’t expect it to be but in that moment it was hard to see through his shoe.
So here I am now. Writing. Taking the emotion and aggravation and hurt and putting it out there. Because that’s what this is all about. I try to keep this blog as positive as possible, but as I’ve told you before, and I’m sure I’ll tell you again, this is my journey and I’m going to be honest with you. Besides, I did invite you along with me.