Category Archives: Breakthrough

My Initial Reaction

Yesterday started the kick off of the Fit Mixer bootcamp.  You’ll have to excuse me as this is only the beginning of my talking about it.  The bootcamp goes on for 12 weeks and while I don’t plan to talk about it everyday, I do plan to check-in regularly.  This is for me as much as it is for you.  While this round is all filled, you may be inspired to join their next round.  Or maybe you’ll just be interested in jump-starting a new workout regime.  Whatever may happen, I’m still going to talk about it.

What I really want to talk to about today is my initial reaction.  The day 1 workout was actually more of a “test” – something we’ll do a few times over the course of the bootcamp to check in with our fitness levels.  This is definitely a way to see improvement so I’m looking forward to seeing what I can do.  But dang it kicked my butt.  Maybe it was because we started with the ever-so-butt-kicking-burpee.  Maybe it was the fact that I took a puff of my inhaler 2 minutes before starting (smart move…).  Or maybe it was just because it was difficult and supposed to be.  It’s only the beginning but I guess my body didn’t expect to get kicked so hard so early.

The other challenge is something I’m really not used to – calorie counting.  As I’ve mentioned before, I’m utilizing the bootcamp by having a new plan to re-invigorate some of my workouts and toning.  It’s not about losing weight.  But this bootcamp is really an all or nothing.  I paid for it.  I’m going to get the most out of it.

Don’t get me wrong – I LOVE these books!

The great thing is that they don’t say “eat this, don’t eat that” but rather give you a set calorie, protein, carb, fat amount per day.  Then you eat what you like fitting within those parameters.  Or at least try your best.  Then, you’re able to learn where you need to make more adjustments.  By lunch time yesterday I already knew what I needed – more protein.  But it’s challenging to actually stop and think about what I’m eating.  I already eat well but I’ve never counted anything, I’ve just eaten mindfully.  This is going to be a challenge.

Photo courtesy of Janetha

Besides already getting my butt kicked, I want to say how I much I LOVE the FitMixer team.  They were all super friendly and amazing when I met them at Blend and I can already feel their support in this bootcamp.  We also start each day with some motivation and a nutritional tip.  This isn’t just about getting us in shape, but improving our lives and overall well being.

Cheers to the journey!

I’m Gonna Own Today

I woke up yesterday morning already running late.  I rushed my shower, getting ready and ate half my breakfast while running out the door.  Then I felt better as I pulled into the parking structure 10 minutes before needing to be at work.

I got to work and got rolled over with frustration almost at the get-go.  Darn callouts.  Darn people not dealing with it that should.  Then I took a deep breath, put on my smiling face, and made things happen.

While this may seem like the ebb and flow of a normal day (and pretty much is), I felt it bringing me down more than it should and I decided that I was going to stop it.  As I was walking to Starbucks to get my coffee, I made the best decision I could have made for my day:

I’m gonna own today and not let it own me.

I came back from grabbing coffee for myself and breakfast for my manager, geared up and went out to run the floor so she could take a break.  I felt amazing!  I felt like I could take on the world in that moment!

She tried to come back early; I sent her away.  I was in my zone; I was feeling good; I had this.

As the day progressed and I felt other things poking at me, I reminded myself of this and turned it around.  It was amazing and quite the breakthrough.

The next time you’re having a rough day, tell yourself I’m gonna own today and not let it own me.  I bet you’ll instantly start to feel better.

More MarchPhotoADay pictures for you…and I couldn’t help myself, I shared two corners of my home! :)

The guy…

The guy who liked your friends.

The guy who things ended peacefully and mutually and in reality was probably too good for you.

The guy who you liked but he had a girlfriend; forget that. (x2)

The guy who didn’t actually care; you were just convenient for the situation.

The guy who loved you, but couldn’t tell you why it couldn’t work.

The guy who didn’t appreciate you.

The guy who is really just a good friend, not the one to date. (x3)

The guy who used you.

The guy who knows the good, the bad and the ugly, still cares but at the end of the day, it might just come down to bad timing.


All hurt in one way or another.  All help you get to the right one.  I’m still looking for that right one.

Some days it’s lonely.  Some days it’s freeing.  Some days it just is what it is.

This week, it’s stung like a fresh cut.  I’m trying to put the past behind me but all I really want to do is hop a plane and fly away; move away; get away.


It doesn’t have to hurt this bad.  I don’t have to let it sting so deep.  But I’m having a hard time putting it all behind me and breathing.  I’m afraid to let my wall down for fear of getting hurt.  But I know I will never find love again until I can do that.  That and let go of the fear and insecurities these past guys have put on me.

Sometimes I think I need to learn to be selfish; to say what I’m thinking, what I’m feeling, and what I want.  Sometimes I think I need to stop making sure you have what you need and ensure that I have what I need.  And sometimes…sometimes I think I need to stop thinking about it; just let it happen; just live.

(Disclaimer: This is me being completely and openly honest.  And in continuing with that, I was afraid to post this.  I’m okay but I’m growing up and finding love is part of that journey.  And this blog is a way for me to share my journey with anyone who wants to listen.  So why hold back?)

My Commitment

I’m committing to me.  I’m committing to what I need.  I’m committing to what will make me happy.

And if you have a problem with it, you can just deal.

I’m not a selfish person.  I often find myself too often putting others needs in front of my own.  Sometimes to the point where I neglect my own needs.  So I’m recommitting to myself and recommitting to listening to what my mind and body are asking for.  Because at the end of all of this, I want to be happy with my life.

I’m starting by trying to figure out what it is I want right now.  It has felt like things are missing or something just isn’t right, so I want to figure out what that is and how to fix it.  And I know it starts by focusing on me.  And quite honestly, by focusing on my writing.

In case you missed it, I just want to write.

So putting myself out there for more writing opportunities seems like a start.  Figuring out how to get more experience writing seems like a start.  And pulling together some of my best writing samples seems like a start.  So I started.

I’m not exactly sure what the next steps are but at least I can say that I’ve started and I’m working to figure out what’s next.  That’s more than I could have said yesterday…