Yesterday was my day “off” – I put that in quotes because I still went in to work for a couple hours. I used that certificate I worked so hard to get back in November but haven’t really used…oh yeah, remember that? 😉
Anyway, it’s been a tough week. Weird work schedule, emotional roller coaster post-Boston Marathon attack, and ever-so-humbling workouts. I know how lucky I am; how fortunate I am to have a job, my health, and the ability to live a free life but this week I’ve been very humbled in all aspects of that life.
After finishing my 1/2 marathon, my plan was to start the LiveFit training program again as a way to reignite my love and focus on strength-training, while veering from the plan a bit (at least in the first phase) to maintain my running. Well, I did start Live Fit and I must admit I have been extremely humbled. Despite the fact that I made sure to strength train through my 1/2 marathon training, two workouts into the program and my butt is getting KICKED! Obviously this is in the best way ever, but kicked regardless.
Wednesday night when I got home from work, the birthday present from my sister was sitting waiting for me. I opened it, sent her a “thank you!!” text message, put the gift card in my wallet and set the empty envelope on my dresser. As I was feeling whiny, frustrated and slightly overwhelmed for offering to work on my day off on Thursday, I happened to glance at the envelope and a certain message jumped out at me:
Maybe that’s what’s holding me back. Fear. In fact, in many ways I’m sure of it. Fear of success, fear of failure, fear of the future, fear of the past, fear of the unknown. I looked at that saying and really thought about it and what it meant for me in that moment; what it meant for this roller coaster week; what it meant for my future. I picked up my phone and sent the text message confirming that I would be in to teach the training sessions this evening.
Do something that scares you because if it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you.