If you’re anything like me, it feels like you have this never ending to-do list; never ending list of priorities and things that need to get done; the list that often out-weighs the list of things you want to do.
If you’re anything like me, there aren’t enough hours in the day is the understatement of the year.
And if you’re anything like me, regardless of all the above, you’re at your best when you’re busiest; you perform better when time is of the essence; you get more done when your schedule is packed.
Funny how that works isn’t it?
Sometimes I look back at my college and immediate post-college years when I was working and in school full time; when I was interning full time, working part time and taking classes full time; when I was working a full time job, a part time job and managing a band on my own.
How did I do it?
Then there are the days now. Where I work somewhere between part time and full time; I work out more than I ever have before (and love it); I write this here beautiful blog; I test recipes and create content that can be used for some additional freelance opportunities; and I have the day to day things that make up my life.
But I don’t feel busy. I feel like I’m dragging my feet. I feel like I want all these things to happen but since my life isn’t that busy, it feels like I have all the time in the world to get things done. I find that I tell myself “there’s always tomorrow” if I don’t get or it looks like I won’t get to something on my to-do list today or if I only apply to 1 new job instead of a few.
This is annoying.
I want to be busier. I want to feel like I’m making progress. I want to feel like the time I’ve spent back in IL has been worth every moment and not just worth some of them. I want to feel like I’m making progress and pushing forward. That’s why I came back here; that’s why I took 8 years of living on my own, swallowed my pride, took a part time job at a local coffee shop, and moved back in with my parents for the time being. To make progress.
And don’t get me wrong, I know I am. I’m testing myself in more ways than I can truly share or explain on this here blog or maybe even aloud to anyone. But it’s time to kick things up a notch. It’s time to find the motivation, the energy, the time to make things happen for me. This is my time!
*This post took a totally different road than it was originally intended. Such is life. I’ll save that post for another day. 😉