If you’re anything like me, it feels like you have this never ending to-do list; never ending list of priorities and things that need to get done; the list that often out-weighs the list of things you want to do.
If you’re anything like me, there aren’t enough hours in the day is the understatement of the year.
And if you’re anything like me, regardless of all the above, you’re at your best when you’re busiest; you perform better when time is of the essence; you get more done when your schedule is packed.
Funny how that works isn’t it?
Sometimes I look back at my college and immediate post-college years when I was working and in school full time; when I was interning full time, working part time and taking classes full time; when I was working a full time job, a part time job and managing a band on my own.
How did I do it?
I can’t believe I’m putting this on the internet…this is me in college.
Then there are the days now. Where I work somewhere between part time and full time; I work out more than I ever have before (and love it); I write this here beautiful blog; I test recipes and create content that can be used for some additional freelance opportunities; and I have the day to day things that make up my life.
But I don’t feel busy. I feel like I’m dragging my feet. I feel like I want all these things to happen but since my life isn’t that busy, it feels like I have all the time in the world to get things done. I find that I tell myself “there’s always tomorrow” if I don’t get or it looks like I won’t get to something on my to-do list today or if I only apply to 1 new job instead of a few.
This is annoying.
I want to be busier. I want to feel like I’m making progress. I want to feel like the time I’ve spent back in IL has been worth every moment and not just worth some of them. I want to feel like I’m making progress and pushing forward. That’s why I came back here; that’s why I took 8 years of living on my own, swallowed my pride, took a part time job at a local coffee shop, and moved back in with my parents for the time being. To make progress.
And don’t get me wrong, I know I am. I’m testing myself in more ways than I can truly share or explain on this here blog or maybe even aloud to anyone. But it’s time to kick things up a notch. It’s time to find the motivation, the energy, the time to make things happen for me. This is my time!
*This post took a totally different road than it was originally intended. Such is life. I’ll save that post for another day. 😉
Oh goodness, in my spree of catching up on your blog, I already commented about my inability to sit still, and the need to always be productive. I totally feel every aspect of this post…
I understand you girl!! However, know that you don’t NEED to be that busy all the time to be productive. This may be what you need right now… time. Time to relax, decompress, and think. Ya know?? I’m always a text away!! xoxo
What about those of us that CAN’T relax?!?!?! 🙂
I totally feel you on the to-do list thing! I constantly feel like I have way too much on my mind. And yes, I look back on high school and college and wonder how I got through it all! All though, adult life comes with a lot more responsibilities!
“Aduly life comes with a lot more responsibilities!” <- Amen to that, sister!
I can TOTALLY relate! It seems like my To Do List never gets any shorter and the days never get any longer. I felt like I wasn’t making progress either. So even though I am a busy full-time working wife and mom, I decided to go back to school. Because apparently I wasn’t busy enough?? Perhaps I am a glutton for punishment. But it’s all in the name of progress.
Hey girl, whatever makes you happy! And if going back to school is going to help you progress and move forward in some way, why not?
I’m the same way — I complain about all I have to do but know if I didn’t try to write the Great American Novel on top of working full-time, blogging and having a life, I wouldn’t get nearly as much done. I dream about quitting the day job to write full-time, but if I did, I’d probably waste all my time playing online and not get any writing done. It’s knowing that I have to go to work that keeps me focused during writing time.
Exactly! Oh man, if I ever got to write full time, I’d be the happiest gal ever!
I hear ya girl! I’m so close to school now (so I’m not driving 10 hours a week) and haven’t found a job yet…not too many friends here yet and Dave is working this weekend so…I literally had no plans for today. Well, except for an interview that got moved to tomorrow. So friggin weird being bored!
I suppose I should be doing homework…but there’s always tomorrow. 😉
Okay kidding. Off to do my homework! 😉
Do your homework, lady!! >:-|
sounds like you and I are *so* much alike. I’m having the same issues. I think it’s b/c i did SO MUCH the last 10ish years that I need to dial it back, and I’m afraid of being too busy, so I keep putting things off. There is always tomorrow, but I’m finding that if I can get the annoying things out of the way as early as possible in the day, I’m more motivated to do more. 🙂
You should read The Defining Decade! You’re setting yourself up for your future! 🙂
i think we mature as we live life, mature in work choices and value our time more! If we are busy doing what we love, then we want to do more, naturally, yes?
Exactly!!
Um, we’re exactly the same person.
We’re good people. 😉
Good for you! Good luck as you go out to tackle what you want! 🙂
Thanks, girl! 🙂