Slow crash
Stumble over nothing on my own path
Runaway, I am just a nomad
No one ever wanted me to go back
I know I am anything but uncouth
People try to change me since my youth
But I refuse
I refuse
I can’t remember the first time I heard this song, but I’m almost positive it was shortly after the breakup. I made a note in my phone that it was good and worthy of a Music Monday share and then it was forgotten, lost in a sea of other music that needed to be shared.
Then I was sitting under a blanket with snow falling outside Saturday morning working on blogging related tasks for the week ahead, pulled up the slotted music choice for this week and while definitely still worth sharing, it wasn’t hitting me as hard and that whole writer’s block activity we all dread was hitting hard.
I went back to my list of post ideas and music options for just these kinds of moments and I saw “Refuse” by Kevin Garrett. Honestly, I didn’t remember it at first so I threw it into my trusty Google, pulled up the video and corresponding lyrics, and suddenly it was like magic.
It all came back to me in an instant, but hitting on a whole new level. This time it’s not about break up emotions, it’s about potential, it’s about looking at the path I’m on, the diverging roads in the distance and potential decisions to be made, the road blocks that are popping up and I’m knocking over, almost like one of those “bop-it” games we played as kids.
I’m me. I’m on my own journey and creating my own path and life. It won’t always make sense to everyone and I’m sure in many ways, it doesn’t always make sense to me, but I’m learning to listen to my gut instincts again, remembering that when I don’t is when I get myself in trouble.
So I refuse. I refuse to be anything other than myself. And I refuse to do anything other than live the life that feels right for me.
What do you refuse?
Gorgeous song! I don’t refuse much, but I probably should start. I tend to think about what I choose to do. Walking outside as been a big one for me this year. I rarely walk during the work day (other than a lunch break run 1-2 times a week) so most of my steps are at 9 pm before I go to bed.
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I’m looking forward to some lunch walks as soon as the weather cooperates!
I refuse to let anything stop me what I want to do!!
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You go, girl!
I live for your music monday posts!
I’m a bit late to the response BUT you should know this comment totally made my day! 🙂 <3
i refuse to let grad school work take over my life..i am desperately waiting to graduate : (:(
the song is on repeat now, thanks for the recommendation.
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I refuse to let house repairs get me down! I refuse to have a case of the Mondays. I need to listen to this song when I am on lunch break. Thank you for sharing
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Beautiful song had to play it after reading what you wrote. I refuse to be anyone else but me.
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Oh, this is beautiful! Put it on play on Spotify right away and listening to it as I type. Thanks for the recommendation – hadn’t heard it before! Happy Monday xxx
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