The Gray Area

Sometimes we find ourselves questioning what we want to do with our lives, or maybe it’s what we’re meant to do with our lives. Regardless, we’re often questioning ourselves. I think this is especially true in our 20s as we are still discovering ourselves, who we are, we who want to be and what we want out of this life. My journey has proven that I have often felt that way. And quite honestly, many days I still feel that way.

When I find myself battling these thoughts, these questions and I feel that inner struggle, it’s often between my love and passion for a career in music and my love and passion for healthy-living and fitness. What I learned after pursuing my CPT two years ago is that it’s not black and white for me. I can’t just work in music and I can’t just work in the fitness field. I have to find that balance, that middle ground, that gray area if you will. Somedays I feel like I have the right shade of gray and other days I find myself trying to lighten or darken the shade, struggling to find the right balance.

Despite my unknowns, despite my inconsistencies, despite my questions and concerns, there’s two things I know to be certain….

1 – I am SO passionate about music that it will ALWAYS have to be a part of my life and my career. I am not ME unless it is. I have a particular soft spot for talented musicians who are doing everything within their power to make it, who need that extra push and guidance to get to the next level of their careers. They’ll piss me off one day and inspire me the next, but I need that in my life.

2 – I am HERE to inspire people, to help them reach their next level of health and fitness, to help them realize that health is within their reach no matter how far away it may seem, to be that extra bit of motivation to get through that tough workout, that long run or maybe even that FIRST step for their afternoon walk. Whatever it may be, I’m here to help inspire that change as I continue to push MYSELF outside my comfort zone and challenge my body in new ways every single day.

My journey is really just beginning and there’s no telling what lies ahead, what shade of gray I’ll step in tomorrow or if it will be a different shade a few months or years down the line. All I can really do is just pick up a brush and start painting.